The Edge of Darkness
My restless soul is ready to fly. It pulls at me, “Come on, let’s do this!”
I sit quietly still. But on the inside I’m screaming out – screaming at me – screaming to free myself, to be who I’m supposed to be. But I can’t get out – controlled from the outside in. I scream and cry and try to reach out, “Let me out! Please! Let me out!”. Tears are welling in my eyes. I am trapped within myself. A prisoner of my own control. Pain. My heart aches. My soul wants to be free. On my knees, I plea with myself, “Free me!”. I feel it so strongly as it continues to pull.
She stands at the edge of the darkness, ready to fly… frozen in fear… as a thousand ‘what if’s try to pull her back down.
The words above came to me today. Sometimes I just have to write without even knowing what or why, but I do it anyway and as I start to write, the words come, until they stop. I have been sitting staring at this painting which leans against the TV screen so I feel these words are its message to myself.
The spirals on the artworks appeared to me one night when I couldn’t sleep – black and white, darkness and light, lower and higher, yin and yang, spiritual ascension, overlaying the messy expressive paintings that I create. The next morning I played with spirals until the design below came to me. I was so happy with it! It was so exciting to see them together at last as if it was always meant to be. And it is very scary to now share them with the world but here goes… xo
The following artwork is available for purchase as an 8 x 10in art print in the Planet Phoebe online shop.